multiple things crammed into one entry:

i used to think that maybe i was hiding behind long hair and a beard.
and now i feel like maybe i'm hiding behind shorter hair and no beard.
so, then, what is it i'm hiding from?
and why am i so bad at it?


aborted writing session-



i wish my mood was a bit better at matching what it is i have to do.


sorry to people still waiting for postcards. i have been procrastinating. i will get to them. i'm gonna try and send out the first four by the end of next week at the latest.


the christmas song i did with chance turned out quite good considering how little time we had to put into it. i'll post a link when it is finally officially available.

i'm hoping someday the sound of my own voice will no longer sound horrible to me.


"when all the ropes have strung you up / and all the blades have cut you down / i hope you find that ground"


doomtree is so good.


i was talking to my friend last night about how i am wavering between wanting to be more social than i have been lately and wanting to be completely and utterly anti-social. isolate myself completely. and spend all my time on getting better at things that i always put off. then he said that that always sounds like a good idea, but i probably wouldn't actually be productive. i would probably waste my time on laptop tv and making sad blog posts. i told him sad blog posts aren't a complete waste of time. he may be right.
instead of working on a poster right now, i'm typing this instead.

it just feels like i need to get it out of me. like a poison.
but maybe it's never actually worked that way.


i better go try and draw some whimsical crap. time's running out.

posted by adam @ 10:34 PM