there was a meeting at work which has quite possibly made my job worse. or perhaps it will just make it challenging again. and un-tedious. like i wanted it to be. i can't tell.
lately i keep getting the thought that i need to completely destroy my life as i currently know it. crash down all my comforts and habits and patterns. lay waste to it all. and then start all over again.
the problem being that i do not have anywhere near the nerve required to start. much less pull it off.
sometimes i wonder what would happen if i were ever able to completely loose my tongue. but then i also feel that there's a reason for it's agoraphobia. or maybe purpose is a better word.
i've noticed that i have had my hair up all day long, every day for at least the last week. i wonder if that means it is time to cut my hair. and beard. and pretend harder that i am a grownup.
i have other, much more interesting blog posts that i have been meaning to put up. but i feel like they require more time and attention than i have had lately (had is probably not the right word. that i have been willing to give would be more accurage). so, instead, here's a song by pylon. i've been listening to them a lot the last few days. so nice. consider it a preview to a possible (though not guaranteed) ddvm b-sides mix.
pylon - beep
posted by adam @ 10:29 PM
1 Comments:
do it! just to know you did something that threw out every sense of reality as you are familiar it.
Doesn't have to be everything though. Move to a new house. Look for a different job. Go for a trip somewhere alone, where you know absolutely no one.
Lets talk about this sometime. Best/hardest thing I ever did.
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